Dying

I think it's about twice a year when this cold hits everyone.  Whenever there is a sudden shift in the weather someone gets sick and it spreads like wildfire.  My house of roommates have all been hit--all but one.  I have heard that because of the cold weather you want to stay inside and eat more sweets, and because you eat more sweets you get less nutrition, which means your immune system really starts to suck.  Makes sense I guess.  Which is why I had a giant pice of better than sex cake when I came home to parents' today.  I usually have quite the immune system but this year I feel like death.  When I laugh or try to speak all I do is cough.  My body is sore from coughing.All I want to do is close my eyes, I don't even care to sleep.  Anytime they are open I feel that awful burn that you feel when you're looking at the sun.

Promise it tasted better than it looks.

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Better With The Lights Off

I think that when it's dark most people lose a lot of their inhibition or their entire mind. (^^obviously got dressed in the dark)  In some cases all of their inhibition.  Maybe their conscience just disappears.  I went 80s dancing this week and literally had a pit in my stomach for the sickos in the corner.

I don't think I even want to call it dancing.  Dancing doesn't go on at "dance parties" anymore.  It's more entertaining than that.  If you have ever been dancing with someone and had people surrounding you clapping and yelling to keep going--you should definitely be ashamed, because you were probably embarrassing yourself.  Sorry if that sounds rude, but you were probably dancing/kissing like the pair above.  Every time I go to a dance party I feel like I'm 18 again, but I'm 21.  I refuse to ever date anyone that I meet on the dance floor.  If there were a boy at a dance party that didn't have on a basketball jersey, sunglasses, a flat brimmed hat, high tops, or extra cologne--then I might consider it.  Because boys without those characteristics don't usually attend college dance parties I don't plan on meeting someone.  Ever.  Seriously no exceptions.  Meeting someone like that is as embarrassing as meeting on Facebook in my book.  Well, almost.  Maybe.  This is the reason that I dance like I don't care, and push people out of the cages, and kick boys who are trying to photobomb pictures.

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Here's My Email

Those words above always make me nervous when someone in a class say them.  You know, you're working on an assignment or project and need to be in contact with everyone.  There are two types of bad email addresses that could follow this statement.  First, their school ID address.  Who uses those?  I have checked my Umail maybe three times each semester of college.  Maybe I am just a lousy student but I probably won't check it till spring break.  At that point it usually is pointless mail anyway.  So when someone gives me their email address and it corresponds with the university I'm a little confused as to how they have an outside life from school.  Maybe they don't.  Or maybe they are too embarrassed by their alternative one which brings me to the second type of bad email addresses.  The ones that are too personalized, too personalized since the 8th grade.  I'll use mine for example: soccerqween8@hotmail.com.  I realize that qween is spelled wrong but with queen spelled right the address was unavailable so I had to be soccerQWEEN8.  Of course it was at hotmail.com because my address had to be compatible with MSN Instant Messenger.  @msn.com was too hard to figure out and I never understood the kids who had email addresses @aol.com because that seemed so adult like. Just the other day my friend borrowed my computer to check her facebook.  She typed "prettykitti@yahoo.com" and I could not stop laughing.  We're 21 here, but I love her--and it's just Facebook, she does have a professional one too.  I will be that any girl reading this blog had an email address consisting of one of these four words:  surfer, dancer, queen, gurl.


Don't lie and say you didn't.




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Everything But Productive

I skipped a class this morning for no reason other than to watch YouTube  videos at home.  The class I went to was scheduled for a field trip.  In my book that means cancelled.  I got to  campus at 10:00 and didn't get home till 11:00 tonight.  It's fun, and partially by choice.  This semester I have more down time than last and so I've finally started to use the library.  I did not know that I would see the majority of the people that I have ever known just sitting in a chair.  I've been in the same chair for almost four hours.  My eyes are burning from looking at this screen--all I want is a nap.

What have I done in the library for the past four hours on my unproductive day?  Everything but homework.  I got a business idea from a friend I made here though.  If you're a student at the U go "like" the OGIO page he is promoting.

What I've accomplished today:

• Shower
• Blog
• Eat
• Field Trip
• Watched a 3-D movie
• Played a McDonald's video game
• That's it

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Become

I want to be:

• Happy with my past choices
• Healthy
• Able to say all that I'm thinking
• Financially stable
• Musically talented
• The best friend I can be
• Able to make anyone laugh
• A hard worker
• A good example, consistently
• More charitable
• Without any regrets
• An entrepreneur
• Forgiven by anyone I have offended
• A mom and wife
• Someone to confide in
• The inventor of an app
• Loved and appreciated
• A good conversationalist
• Well educated and teachable
• Approachable
• More patient
• Polished and nice looking (currently at school in rain boots and a beanie :/ eh)
• Full of life, with a sense of humor
• A good, strong member of my church
• A lady
• Able to sit and play anything on my piano
• A good cook

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No Clever Title

I thought that these hats were a little ridiculous until I saw this today.  I'll admit though--I've never seen flip flops look so good on campus.  In January.

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these scarves might be worse

The Hype

Spring Break 2012!

Well, it's January, but we might as well start planning so that whatever we plan can fall through like it does every year.  We'll just end up in St. George.  Right?  Really what is the hype with Spring Break?  College Spring Break was always something I thought of being evil as a little kid.  Why?  Because when I was eleven my family was in Cancun for a vacation at the same time as college students on Spring Break.  Thong bikinis and loud music was horrifying.  Incident number two:  I was on a cruise with my family over Spring Break when I was thirteen.  Just down the hall from us was a group of college girls who were intoxicated and underdressed 90% of the time.  I remember my parents laughing at them at the end of the trip when their tab for alcohol came out and they didn't really understand why they owed so much.

Last year for Spring Break I went to St. Thomas by myself to visit a few friends.  Why can't I just do that again?  Going to Vegas only to inhale smoke, shop, eat out, and avoid pornography everywhere I go doesn't sound too appealing.  "Let's take a road trip to California!" will never happen.  Spring Break should be exactly that--a break, from everything, time for me to catch up.

I want to post some stereotypical pictures of college Spring Break, but I just said I didn't want to have to avoid dirty pictures in Vegas.  I'm saying it now that there will be at least 20 posts on Facebook titled "Spring Break 2012: No Regrets" along with pictures of this written in the sand.


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hahaHA!

A lot of us are self-consious of our laughs.  Sometimes I laugh too hard at things that end up not being that funny to everyone, and I feel like an idiot.  Occasionally just a single burst of "HA!" escapes my mouth.  That one is embarrassing.  And more often than I'd like to admit I'm accused of "that little giggle."  After years of having these accusations I feel that I've been able to accept the fact that I sound stupid when I laugh sometimes, just as everyone else--at least we have a sense of humor.

The other night I was at a comedy show with my family.  Brian Regan.  He is a really funny guy who puts on a good show.  He was on stage for about an hour.  For about an hour and a half a girl just a few seats down was doing some internal damage from laughing so hard.  IT WASN'T THAT FUNNY.  And she was annoying, so annoying that I wanted Brian Regan to get off the stage so that she could catch her breath.  I'll say I was worried that she would pass out due to lack of oxygen--but honestly that would have been fine! (Sorry that was rude.)  Everyone surrounding could not keep their heads form turning every time she and her date/brother/WHAT? would cackle.  The show finally ended, and I really enjoyed it, he did a good job.  I overheard (I eavesdrop sometimes, what of it?) a dozen conversations about "that laugh" on my way out of Abravanel Hall.

Needless to say, I am no longer self-conscious, and probably never will be again.  I only pray that this poor girl finds a way to still express the fact that she thinks something is funny without turning heads from every direction.

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Elder Busche

If you haven't heard this you should listen.  

I have heard it so many times but it never gets old.

I Guess I'm Human

I truly have always thought that I was invincible.  I joke about it, but I'm serious.  I claim to be strong, thick-skinned, confrontational, and independent.  Now I understand why my mom is honestly worried for my safety everyday.  I'm too brave!  I think that I can handle too much.  The idea of being kidnapped used to be exciting because I was so confident I could fight someone off.  How ridiculous is that?  HA!  I am laughing at myself.  I took a self-defense class one semester and by the video below wouldn't you agree that I probably could hold my own?  I'm a joke.

(Please excuse the profanities, I got extra credit for swearing)

The reality is, I'm just as much human as anyone.  My friend Browyn posted something on Twitter that got me thinking (see how socially connected I am?  It's disgusting). 

"As much as we all try to be invincible, we're bound to break at some point."

It's true, and I never realized it before.  I'm not saying I am "broken", but things affect me more than I think.  Thank goodness I am busy and am not able to think too hard about this, but I still do.  Non-stop.  How invincible am I really?  How independent am I?  I don't want to be thick-skinned and appear insensitive anymore.  And I really want to get out of this funk of talking seriously on my blog....haha too late.  I have to post this.  Sorry for the scattered mood of this, but that's what I am right now, and I don't know what to do.

Happy MLK Day by the way.

I'm going to bed now.

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It's Exhausting

I Tweet.

I Blog.

I FB.

I Instagram.

I Pin.

I HeyTell.

I could go on and on and on.

Is this too much?  I think so.  I really am way too socially connected.  There is too much information going into my head.  Too many things to consider, people to laugh at, conversations to keep track of, pictures to see--everything.  The thing with social networking is that you know too much about people.  

"Did you go to Starbucks today? Yeah that picture of your drink looked amazing/hipster."  

"Is your room clean?  I know you were getting so tired of it."  

"How's that new music you listened to on Spotify?"  

"Who were you with today at the gym? Oh never mind I saw your check in."

I read a blog post, is that about me?  I re-tweet something and wonder who's going to think it's directed that them.  I read someone's tweets and wonder why their emotions are displayed every three seconds.  Then I wonder why I'm blogging about this? Oh well.  We're all so vain, and concerned.  Oh dear.

"I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.  It's exhausting."  From He's Just Not That Into You. 

Really, ^^^ too many means of communication, friends, teachers, boys, parents--way too socially connected. 

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Getting All Churchy For A Sec

My dad sent me the link to this video on Facebook this morning.  It has some of my favorite music in it :/ and is a comparison of life to running a marathon.  "How many people would sign up for a marathon if they didn't think they could really finish it?"  I know it is directed to the youth and that I'm....not technically "the youth" anymore.  I'm TWENTY-ONE, an adult, it freaks me out, shouldn't I have my life all figured out and onto the next step by now?  Nope, sorry.  It's not that I'm "coasting", I know that I'm still progressing towards bigger and better things but I also am content with where I am right now and who I'm becoming.  Even when I hit frustrating experiences I don't feel stuck in a rut.  I came to Earth just like you did because "we must have thought we could pass the test."  And we can, you will.  So please appreciate this encouraging and heartfelt side of me because it's not likely to come out on my blog very often.

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Three Questions

1. How and why does Nickelback still exist when I only ever hear jokes about that freaking Canadian rock band, eh?
2. Why do some of the songs that blast through my speakers from my iTunes completely make me question my wellbeing? 
1. Entire Glee soundtracks--where did those come from
2. Every Nelly song ever made?
3. Linkin Park, Enrique Inglesias, Saosin, and all those Track ** so frustrating.
3. I laugh so hard at tweets like this but genuinely enjoy Bon Iver sometimes.  Most of the time.  But the tweet is so true.

follow him on twitter

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PC

Political correctness.  I can't handle it.  It is a good thing, but too much of it is exactly that--too much.  So the University of Utah is considering changing the mascot of the Ute Indian with the drum and feather as the logo.  If this takes effect I wouldn't be surprised if next up someone stands up for the brown bear and SLCC has to change their name from the Bruins.  Well let's be real, who cares about SLCC.  It's a great school. 

Sign the petition to keep the drum and feather around!

CLICK HERE

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Birthday Eve

My (today) ten-year-old sister decided that Birthday Eve is just as important as Christmas Eve--which allows her to open one present.  We made her present her case to the family and take a vote after about an hour of her begging.  We gave in and she picked one gift.  Anyone who has the Christmas Eve tradition of opening one gift KNOWS how awful it is when you open the pajamas.

Megan opened a new hat and gloves.  Sucker.

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