Dying

I think it's about twice a year when this cold hits everyone.  Whenever there is a sudden shift in the weather someone gets sick and it spreads like wildfire.  My house of roommates have all been hit--all but one.  I have heard that because of the cold weather you want to stay inside and eat more sweets, and because you eat more sweets you get less nutrition, which means your immune system really starts to suck.  Makes sense I guess.  Which is why I had a giant pice of better than sex cake when I came home to parents' today.  I usually have quite the immune system but this year I feel like death.  When I laugh or try to speak all I do is cough.  My body is sore from coughing.All I want to do is close my eyes, I don't even care to sleep.  Anytime they are open I feel that awful burn that you feel when you're looking at the sun.

Promise it tasted better than it looks.

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I Guess I'm Human

I truly have always thought that I was invincible.  I joke about it, but I'm serious.  I claim to be strong, thick-skinned, confrontational, and independent.  Now I understand why my mom is honestly worried for my safety everyday.  I'm too brave!  I think that I can handle too much.  The idea of being kidnapped used to be exciting because I was so confident I could fight someone off.  How ridiculous is that?  HA!  I am laughing at myself.  I took a self-defense class one semester and by the video below wouldn't you agree that I probably could hold my own?  I'm a joke.

(Please excuse the profanities, I got extra credit for swearing)

The reality is, I'm just as much human as anyone.  My friend Browyn posted something on Twitter that got me thinking (see how socially connected I am?  It's disgusting). 

"As much as we all try to be invincible, we're bound to break at some point."

It's true, and I never realized it before.  I'm not saying I am "broken", but things affect me more than I think.  Thank goodness I am busy and am not able to think too hard about this, but I still do.  Non-stop.  How invincible am I really?  How independent am I?  I don't want to be thick-skinned and appear insensitive anymore.  And I really want to get out of this funk of talking seriously on my blog....haha too late.  I have to post this.  Sorry for the scattered mood of this, but that's what I am right now, and I don't know what to do.

Happy MLK Day by the way.

I'm going to bed now.

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