Indirect Communication

I would have to say that the worst way of getting your point across is by trying to do so through indirect communication.  If you have something to say why not just say it how it is?  There are few cases where I'd say this varies:

1. Tweets
1. Stop tweeting at the world when you in fact have things to say to a specific person.  None of us want to hear or guess who you're talking at when you say "I can't believe I listened to you," or "Can't get you off my mind."  Like obviously you had a bad relationship.  And how dumb would you feel if your ex saw that their existence obviously takes up most of your time.  Stop tweeting about it.  Write in a journal or talk to your mom. 
2. Songs
1. Text message:  "Hey you should listen to this song, I think you'll really like it"
1. The lyrics are indirectly saying exactly what this person wants to say to you, but they can't say it.  I call this pulling a Taylor Swift.
3. The Grapevine
1. "My friend told me that her roommate heard you and your sister talking at Starbucks last week about her.  Are you fighting?"
4. Friendly Notes :) 

1. I suppose this way is actually quite direct and to the point.  It's all done through notes though.  This is awkward because then when you see each other in person you remember that you forgot how to talk to people's faces when you have a problem.
2. My friend had these on her Instagram, battles between her roommates.  Hilare. Hopefully Hailey and Kaisha figured things out. 

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The Real World (not MTV style)

I am a 21 year old girl working two jobs and attending college, and the grill fell off my car a few weeks ago.  HA! That made my life sound pretty hard.  I'm grateful for my life and the ease/challenges of it.  Even though I'm not graduating any time soon I have been thinking about those who ARE graduating soon and WILL be 100% adults in the real world.  As a girl, if I'm not graduating as a school teacher or a nurse I don't know what I'm doing with my life.  Kidding.  That's too generic.  I don't know if what I will be doing when I graduate will be making a substantial amount of money or not.  I'll work hard enough to survive and maybe I won't be eating at Chick-Fil-A anymore if I can't afford that.  But I'll be happy with my work, and that's what's important to me.

Some people might say that I'm a little bit sexist or stereotypical (I hope I'm using the right words) for saying that I don't plan on being the breadwinner for my family, but I want to be a mom instead.  And I should be.  I'll probably have about 9 kids and they'll be adorably dressed in clothes that you can BET will have be purchased for a good deal. My degree will allow me to make money as needed and hopefully work a desired amount of hours.  AND I'LL BE HAPPY. But boys?  I feel so sorry for them!  As soon as they graduate high school they go to college.  By their early 20s they are working on a degree that they most likely chose to pursue before they were even an adult.  Men plan on providing for their families, but how do they know they'll be happy with their work for the next 40 years?  They don't.  It would be scary to be a boy, to dive into a job or career and consider sticking with it for the rest of your life, and crossing your fingers that it would make you happy, and it could support your family.  I would rather have a happy and healthy family than have a lot of money but uptight relationships.  Family is important, and it will all work out.

I'm grateful to be a girl, sorry boys, I hope it all works out, but if not--you could dress up and charge for pictures like this guy.

Obviously I snuck this one. 

BUT NOT THIS ONE!

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The Look

Everyone has their own sense of humor, their own outlook on life I suppose.  I always find myself really clicking with those type of people who seem to be a little funnier than your average joe.  I prefer the humor that takes some deep thought to understand sometimes.  Simplicity is childish, not that funny.  There are honestly some people my age that still laugh at Disney channel shows or cry while they read Nicholas Sparks.  I'm getting off on a tangent.  I don't care about Disney channel OR Nicholas Sparks books, what I'm meaning to talk about is that certain sense of....not humor....sense of judgement.  The only way I can describe this is with...

The look.

You've all had those few people that "just get it".  My friend describes it by saying, "we're just better."  I won't go as far as saying we're necessarily better than others.  Because I'm not.  But I definitely do understand the look.  I hope you know what I'm talking about now.  I'm really trying here!  You overhear someone say something ridiculous and your friend makes eye contact with you.  You see someone out in public that might be a little kookoo, the person you're with gives you the look because he/she "just gets it".  Understand?

The look is a little creepy sometimes.  I mean if you don't understand what a recent acquaintance is starring at you with a smirk for you obviously didn't catch the joke floating around.  The great thing is that once you know that somebody "just gets it" because they acknowledge the look, that you'll be great friends.

Original photos of past scenarios when the look would have been necessary:

I'd give anyone a shot who has a collection of pictures like these few of mine.

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Mr. Right (Draft II)

My friends know me well enough to know that I am a picky dater.  Ridiculously picky.  But I'm fine with it, I'd rather be single for months at a time instead of go on dates that won't go anywhere but just to date. Really I don't like dating much, but that's what the topic of every bit of life advice I've gotten from people lately has been.  From meeting with my bishop last week to lessons, conversations with friends all the way to an encounter this past weekend I was at the temple in St. George where 67-year-old Jim.  He gave my friends and I some advice since we're all "21 and single".

He says there are only three traits that your husband needs:

1. No bad habits
2. Ambition
3. Intelligence

Well, the length of this list that I made a year and a half ago definitely exceeds the three necessary traits.  Can I fix it?  Maybe.  I guess I don't have to be so particular.  I am though, because I'm sure there is someone out there who sings hymns at church, has my taste in music, a dirty mind but is super spiritual and knowledgeable about the gospel.  Oh and wears corduroy pants with good shoes.  All in all my list is pretty up to date though.  He exists.  Those 3 up there are good though, and necessary but everything can be figured out and really after living with Rachel I could live with anyone. (Just kidding Rach love you).  I have to add a number four and five. Four--has a testimony and five--hilarious, like belly ache laugh hilarious.

I found a paper in my scriptures though that says 

My Future Husband:

After I filled out the characteristics I wanted when I was 14 I crossed it out and wrote

My Future Husband Self:

It's true though, just like you are what you eat.  Kind of, in a way--you are what you marry.  And it will only work if you both are 100% invested and willing.  So I hope that when I get married and am Jim's age that my husband still doesn't have any bad habits, because that's a long time to live with someone annoying me.  It's fine though, I'll be in love.  

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Become

I want to be:

• Happy with my past choices
• Healthy
• Able to say all that I'm thinking
• Financially stable
• Musically talented
• The best friend I can be
• Able to make anyone laugh
• A hard worker
• A good example, consistently
• More charitable
• Without any regrets
• An entrepreneur
• Forgiven by anyone I have offended
• A mom and wife
• Someone to confide in
• The inventor of an app
• Loved and appreciated
• A good conversationalist
• Well educated and teachable
• Approachable
• More patient
• Polished and nice looking (currently at school in rain boots and a beanie :/ eh)
• Full of life, with a sense of humor
• A good, strong member of my church
• A lady
• Able to sit and play anything on my piano
• A good cook

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I Guess I'm Human

I truly have always thought that I was invincible.  I joke about it, but I'm serious.  I claim to be strong, thick-skinned, confrontational, and independent.  Now I understand why my mom is honestly worried for my safety everyday.  I'm too brave!  I think that I can handle too much.  The idea of being kidnapped used to be exciting because I was so confident I could fight someone off.  How ridiculous is that?  HA!  I am laughing at myself.  I took a self-defense class one semester and by the video below wouldn't you agree that I probably could hold my own?  I'm a joke.

(Please excuse the profanities, I got extra credit for swearing)

The reality is, I'm just as much human as anyone.  My friend Browyn posted something on Twitter that got me thinking (see how socially connected I am?  It's disgusting). 

"As much as we all try to be invincible, we're bound to break at some point."

It's true, and I never realized it before.  I'm not saying I am "broken", but things affect me more than I think.  Thank goodness I am busy and am not able to think too hard about this, but I still do.  Non-stop.  How invincible am I really?  How independent am I?  I don't want to be thick-skinned and appear insensitive anymore.  And I really want to get out of this funk of talking seriously on my blog....haha too late.  I have to post this.  Sorry for the scattered mood of this, but that's what I am right now, and I don't know what to do.

Happy MLK Day by the way.

I'm going to bed now.

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It's Exhausting

I Tweet.

I Blog.

I FB.

I Instagram.

I Pin.

I HeyTell.

I could go on and on and on.

Is this too much?  I think so.  I really am way too socially connected.  There is too much information going into my head.  Too many things to consider, people to laugh at, conversations to keep track of, pictures to see--everything.  The thing with social networking is that you know too much about people.  

"Did you go to Starbucks today? Yeah that picture of your drink looked amazing/hipster."  

"Is your room clean?  I know you were getting so tired of it."  

"How's that new music you listened to on Spotify?"  

"Who were you with today at the gym? Oh never mind I saw your check in."

I read a blog post, is that about me?  I re-tweet something and wonder who's going to think it's directed that them.  I read someone's tweets and wonder why their emotions are displayed every three seconds.  Then I wonder why I'm blogging about this? Oh well.  We're all so vain, and concerned.  Oh dear.

"I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies.  It's exhausting."  From He's Just Not That Into You. 

Really, ^^^ too many means of communication, friends, teachers, boys, parents--way too socially connected. 

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Getting All Churchy For A Sec

My dad sent me the link to this video on Facebook this morning.  It has some of my favorite music in it :/ and is a comparison of life to running a marathon.  "How many people would sign up for a marathon if they didn't think they could really finish it?"  I know it is directed to the youth and that I'm....not technically "the youth" anymore.  I'm TWENTY-ONE, an adult, it freaks me out, shouldn't I have my life all figured out and onto the next step by now?  Nope, sorry.  It's not that I'm "coasting", I know that I'm still progressing towards bigger and better things but I also am content with where I am right now and who I'm becoming.  Even when I hit frustrating experiences I don't feel stuck in a rut.  I came to Earth just like you did because "we must have thought we could pass the test."  And we can, you will.  So please appreciate this encouraging and heartfelt side of me because it's not likely to come out on my blog very often.

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Three Questions

1. How and why does Nickelback still exist when I only ever hear jokes about that freaking Canadian rock band, eh?
2. Why do some of the songs that blast through my speakers from my iTunes completely make me question my wellbeing? 
1. Entire Glee soundtracks--where did those come from
2. Every Nelly song ever made?
3. Linkin Park, Enrique Inglesias, Saosin, and all those Track ** so frustrating.
3. I laugh so hard at tweets like this but genuinely enjoy Bon Iver sometimes.  Most of the time.  But the tweet is so true.

follow him on twitter

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